#Bipolar
I picked up an almost ready to eat food. Only have to put in oven. Then eat. Simple.
I am already struggling on when to eat it. I want to just cook it now and have it over with, but my brain is already constructing the rules and criteria that I will have to fulfill before I can eat it.
If I eat it right now I will be anxious about eating it earlier than when I would normally eat. Hours from now. But if I wait, my brain will have more time to construct criteria to fulfill before eating.
I may get so anxious about not fulfilling the criteria that if I *do* manage to eat, I will hate how it tastes. I may not eat. I am most likely to wait to eat it, even though I could do it now, but this could result in me wasting much of it because I decide I hate it.
Context: I am absolutely overstimulated. Had to drop off my kids with their mother at 9am. Had therapy after that. Then picked up meds. Then had psych meeting after that. Then meds pickup again for fresh scrip, and I had to go to two pharmacies. One pharmacy didn’t get the scrip, but then had lunch break. I waited around because it was too far to go home then come back. Then had to email psych because they didn’t get scrip after lunch. Then had to wait for med to be filled. Went back into that pharmacy for the 6th time and got med. Stopped at the store because I badly needed ice cream, which I probably won’t be able to eat because of fucking food neuroses because I’m fucking overstimulated because I had to do NORMAL HUMAN BULLSHIT, but I’m absolutely overwhelmed and super fucking amped right now. Have taken clonazepam.
I want to be “normal,” but I never will be fucking normal. Going to be on mood stabilizers and antipsychotics for the rest of my life, and STILL will have to manage my stimulation levels so shit doesn’t get triggered. Now I won’t be able to do fuck all for a few days until I recover from DOING NORMAL HUMAN SHIT today. And I don’t even work anymore. How did I go to work every day and maintain a semblance of being a healthy individual?
Joy of joys.... depressed mood just slammed into me #bipolar
The story that took me 20 years to write:
#speakingbipolar #bipolar #mentalillnessawareness
https://speaking-bipolar.ck.page/posts/the-time-i-stole-a-gun-to-kill-myself
Listening to ''material world' by Ed Conway on BBC sounds, and it has blown my mind that #lithium originated in the #bigbang and was stored for millions of years in #brine under the #Atacama desert, and now ended up someone's phone #battery and in my #brain. I take it every day as I am #bipolar. The book addresses the environmental and human costs that lithium extraction has. We need to transition to a green economy but doing this ethically is not simple!
I have some conditions, twice exceptional, gifted + autism and bipolar syndrome and two autoimmune diseases. Gluten is kryptonite for me, for my brain. I can't eat what normal people eat. Nothing is "normal" in my life, sleep, focus, talk, read... I don't like pics of me, nor see my face in the mirror, phisical contact, visual contact... I'm autistic...
#autism #gifted #twiceexceptional #bipolar #AutoimmuneDiseases #gluten
No matter how much it hurts, no matter how much your mind makes you believe your alone. Your not.
BCP New FirstView paper:
What’s in the mind’s eye of individuals with bipolar disorders: an exploration of the content and characteristics of mental images in different thymic phases
Today is just one of those good days. It's a tad bit cooler; I feel somewhat rested; the phlebotomist got me with one stick; there were ibises chilling out by my apartment this morning; the medication was ready at the drive through with no haggling over inaccuracies; I avoided an apartment maintenance worker who has been too forward and creepy; I've had some good online convos; Weezer's cover of Africa playing on the radio made me appreciate Toto, the OG. #Florida #diabetes #rock #bipolar #life
One of my socialization problems is that most of the common topics that people like to talk about don't interest me or bore me. And if they interest me a little, I usually end up responding too philosophically or with acid sarcasm. So people don't understand me or get offended. End of friendship... Then I'm going to hack or play with my cats or my wife.
#twiceexceptional #gifted #autistic #ActuallyAutistc #bipolar #hacker
Postdoctoral Associate for mitochondrial disturbances in neurons
University of Pittsburgh
Come join us for an exciting funded opportunity to explore the cell biology of #bipolar disorder and push the boundaries of imaging!
See the full job description on jobRxiv: https://jobrxiv.org/job/university-of-pittsburgh-27778-postdoctoral-associate-2/?feed_id=59413
#ScienceJobs #hiring #research #cryo-E...
https://jobrxiv.org/job/university-of-pittsburgh-27778-postdoctoral-associate-2/?feed_id=59413
My meds got screwed up, my emotions likewise, and I'm not sleeping. Dogs are unhappy because I am not acting the usual.
Nervous about getting feedback on progress on a short story within the hour from my MFA writing group. I've been on the edge about whether to leave the group but I also wonder if we can bring out the best in each other. Regarding nervousness, it is weird that no matter how old one gets, the more things remain the same. I've also been feeling nervy generally and finally called it a day yesterday to rest. My heart was doing this racing thing and my blood sugar has been low.#bipolar #diabetes #life
My running buddy is back 👍😃 Cold (wet, windy & muddy) enough for the beastie boy to be alongside me for some #MuddyMilesForMegs as part of my Bipolar UK #poletopolechallenge https://bipolaruk.enthuse.com/pf/andy-barnes The wet fields are also great training for the Oldham 1/2 marathon, the conditions putting less stress on aging joints. https://www.justgiving.com/page/andrew-barnes-1693842196725
#runnersofmastodon #runchat #bipolar #bipolarawareness #Maggies #cancersupport #cancer
A blog post about "day zero" for me.
That is, the first day of taking lithium.
Being #bipolar and all, I sometimes find it hard to know whether my rage is just, or if my perceptions are being warped by out of keel brain juice. There’s also interplay between the two… so… great. #mentalhealth
I'm feeling kinda sad this morning, and a bit disappointed in my past angry behavior - also wonder if rapid cycling will just be the new norm for me on these meds, or will I actually level out over time
I had another vivid dream involving my father, stepmother and my brother last evening - it wasn't terrible, but I'd rather have dreams of something else off I have to have these dreams
it's like I live one life awake, and another one asleep - kinda like The Matrix, or Avatar, or something - totally like I step out of one life, and into another
even when I get up to pee, I go right back into the same damn dream
why do these things haunt me so? I feel like I've lived a good, righteous life, and have suffered more than I deserve
I turned to drugs and alcohol as an escape, but it really only delayed the things I should have faced years ago
I only hope that others are learning from my mistakes, and my journey - I do take solace in knowing my own adult children are smart enough to do so
I'm also glad that my friend Kali is in town today for work and we'll get to hang out - we plan to go up to the ranch and meet with the truck, and V just reached out asking my help with an electrical problem - it's still difficult to let this sadness go and focus on these positives
my mental health journey continues it seems, and I'm determined to find balance with as little collateral damage as possible
Laura Collins A person who likes to help others reduce stress and be productive and happy.
https://www.instagram.com/lcollins777/ #adhd #bipolar #stress
Depression or bipolar disorder? A psychiatrist lists five signs it's likely not depression.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AM7vf5HJxaQ
being so sure of missing and mis-diagnoses just drives me insane. anyone else? idk. but it does to me. #adhd ya i technically got it just cant go anywhere for diagnosis cuz nowhere will take people atm. #autism probably but even if i could im not gonna pursue diagnosis cuz that on my records can fuck me up. then theres my supposed #bipolar that i am so fucking certain is #bpd and the bpd is ruining my sanity rn but nothing can be done because (1/?)
Good morning lovers. I woke up at 6:45 and felt motivated to jump straight out of bed and get stuck into the day. I also went to a friend’s place last night and enjoyed their company and couldn’t shut up. Another sure sign that I’m over the #depression and #anxiety. There’s a risk I’m slipping into #hypomania though… I’m embroiled in a toot spat about people of faith, and I drove a bit recklessly last night… and I can feel frustration and impulsivity bubbling away 😬 #mentalhealth #bipolar
I think a lot of my posts give me a really negative appearance. I'm actually a very positive, cheerful person. I sing at work. I dance and make jokes about how if I stop singing and dancing and bouncing that my blood will stop.
But behind all those smiles and laughs and good times, my family is prone to severe mental disorders. My grandmother had severe Schizoeffective Disorder, my sister severe #Bipolar, my brother severe #ADHD and myself severe #OCD.
My first symptoms arrived on schedule in 1st grade. They manifested to their fullness in puberty and now after 2 hospitlizations I've kinda fallen into a weird invisibility zone. A woman with a severe chronic mental condition that's nearing 40.
I did hella therapy but it largely just makes life livable with no medications. It will never erase my symptoms. My disorder has largely shaped my person for positive and negative but it's not something that's easy to live with. I've lost several partners and a marriage and after lots of therapy, I don't blame them.
My current partner and fiance, to aer credit did research on my disorder before I moved in. I had to teach aer how to deal with panic attacks because I have them frequently. There was a time of heavy stress with German Courses and overtime work where I collapsed in front of the fridge, blacked out and continued counting. Ae knows to grab ice to shock me out of severe panic.
The thing to really consider before saying "Yes, I can handle your chronic disorder" is really to understand there will be bad days. I got dumped by a woman whose brother also had severe OCD but it proved too much for her. You might appreciate my devotion to order, punctuality and perfection but can you handle that not going to MY grocery store or MY burger king or MY DM will cause me stress and even still if there are people messing with the order, say construction it's likely to stun me to almost non functional?
The photo included is from last night. I knocked a cup off the counter, a counter I was ashamed of because I did not have the energy to clean it, and then it moved a thing I owned from a "good" state of intact to a "bad" state of broken and just my girlfriend trying to make sure I didn't have a panic attack in broken glass resulted in 2 further panic attacks and a great deal of weeping and insomnia. Ae didn't even do anything really wrong outside of phrasing something a little differently than my panic attack brain could understand.
The thing is that I do a great deal of therapy. Not all of the things my disorder does to me are bad but I have severe trust issues and abandonment trauma not just from friends that thought I could be cured by triggering panic attacks but from partners that said "Yes I can love you" but ended up leaving instead. Dating a person with a chronic disorder is not all bad. I even like a lot of what OCD has done but it is still a commitment with a human on the other end of the bargain.
It doesn't matter if that person has chronic pain, Fibromyalgia, OCD or even Autism and backing out is human but being hurt by abandoment for something outside of my control is too. Luckily in my thirties I started finding partners that did love me, that did mean what they said, that did research instead of guess or just recommend ableism like sunshine and going for a walk as a cure but that doesn't mean it doesn't take me YEARS to trust someone.
#mentalillness #chronicdisorder
For those on the neurodifferent.me server, please keep in mind that @squish is human. As far as I am aware, they are managing and running that server all on their own, and Squish is not paid, so please extend some grace. Thank them for their time and their effort. Tell Squish you appreciate all that they do.
#Neurodivergent #neurodiversity #ADHD #autistic #bipolar #depression #schizophrenia #TBI #SelfCare #CommunityBuilding #Boundaries
Pretty #lonely and #depression. Kids to busy for me, still not over the #divorce. My rent a friend therapist is the only person I really talk to. I’m #bipolar and I feel the drop coming.
Today's All Things Bipolar Newsletter is now available
It includes my weekly update and continues the Surviving Bipolar Series.
#speakingbipolar #bipolar #mentallillness #mentalhealthawareness
Postdoctoral Associate
University of Pittsburgh
Come join us for an exciting funded opportunity to explore the cell biology of #bipolar disorder and push the boundaries of imaging!
See the full job description on jobRxiv: https://jobrxiv.org/job/university-of-pittsburgh-27778-postdoctoral-associate-2/?feed_id=58234
#ScienceJobs #hiring #research #cryo-EM #dopamine #teamtomo #neuroscience #mitoc...
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New interviews will be out soon! Be sure to follow, rate, and review the show if you're into it!
Apple podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/bipolar-recorder/id1589165562
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2z2xp8TYMUUfpgz72n53Dx?si=12e0f5fe820b4045
Official Site: bipolarrecorder.com
#Podcast #mentalhealth #disability #psychology #bipolar #depression
@shhalahr
Just who we are.
My workaround is having just one of each thing out (more spoons). And also have disposable tableware and cutlery. If I can't get around to washing the wares, I switch to disposables.
I did this because last year ALL my tableware and cutlery sat unwashed in my sink for two months. Two freaking months. It took another 4-5 weeks to wash everything with bleach and then again with vinegar / soap.
And then it happened again!
I'm still traumatised.
Longer (#bipolar) episodes are one thing but these random very short (a few hours, a day at most) and intense bursts of mania or depression are really something lol
In an effort to raise some desperately needed funding, this #disabled #bipolar man is offering a .zip file containing 74 tracks of my Manic Sounds for $380.00 thats 38 hours of #music composed and produced by me, you can obtain the album by following this link. https://2ndshot.photos/downloads/manic-sounds/
3/3
Unfortunately, my typing is getting erratic. I now think one word and type another. Or repeat words. Or get word order incorrectly. Or I spell words incorrectly. And I don't realise I'm doing it.
It's been happening for 1-2 years, but it's gotten noticeably worse in the last six months. I now carefully check everything I type before posting / sending it.
Maybe my bipolar symptoms are worsening. Or maybe dementia is setting in. Never a dull moment, eh?
2/3
The speech issues don't happen when I'm typing. Some major differences - speech is slower when typing, and you can edit text before transmitting it. Memory isn't any better, but web search fills in the gaps. Still, typing feels easier than talking.
My typing isn't affected by hypomanic jerkiness. Maybe the brain trying to coordinate talking in real time makes thinking difficult. Or maybe typing uses a different pathway for speech than talking.
/next
1/3
I've always had problems with speech. When I'm hypomanic, composing sentences in real time is problematic. The words I need don't spring to mind, even if I can visualise the idea I want to convey.
My memory might not work properly. I usually can't remember the names of people, places, movies, etc.
Hypomanic jerky coordination can causes thought patterns and speech to be jerky.
I've just stopped doing speeches at any type of gathering.
/next
#Bipolar disorder isn't the same for everyone. So people should have more say in how they're treated
https://theconversation.com/bipolar-disorder-isnt-the-same-for-everyone-so-people-should-have-more-say-in-how-theyre-treated-211124
On those days where you don't feel strong enough to face the world, know that the world brought you into existence to be a part of it. Its only in your own mind that your importance is diminished.
Learn to love yourself and know that you are here for a reason. The world is a better place for having you in it.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #bipolar #selflove #selfcare
Somebody told me about a farmer they knew. He was #bipolar and had once bought four large tractors that he could neither use nor afford when he was off his meds.
@Fayedray
I don't do this specifically, but can confirm that learning to be aware of the tension in your muscles, and learning to intentionally relax them can make a substantial difference to the level of anxiety and hyperactivity one feels.
It does take a while to learn how to do all this (measured in weeks and months), so don't fret if you're finding it a bit of a slog.
#bipolar #anxiety #hypomania #depression #stress #panicattack
This brilliant video by Mica, @PonderfulYT, is as clear an explanation as you’ll find of the neurodiversity movement, neurodivergence and neurotypicality, and their relation to disability: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iicSLx19pc
And it’s not just good because Boba tries to steal the show! 😻
#NeurodiversityMovement #neurodiversity #neurodiverse
#neurodivergence #neurodivergent
#neurotypicality #neurotypical
#disability #disabled
#ADHD #anxiety #aphantasia #autism #bipolar #BPD #BrainDisease #BrainInjury #cPTSD #depression #dyscalculia #dyslexia #dyspraxia #hyperphantasia #LearningDisability #OCD #PTSD #SDAM #Tourettes
hihi! new #introduction because my instance moved once more :neofox_heart:
i'm a #ChronicallyIll, #bipolar, #enby who lives with their black cat and loves thinking too much about fiction
#horror, #podcasting, stories, and #VideoGames are my passion
some media i love: #DoctorWho, #bloodborne, #celeste, #house, #ajj, #lost, #hannibal, most imaginative #indies, #megaman, #digimon, #tmnt, #AudioDrama #cartoons
A new All Things Bipolar Newsletter is available!
#speakingbipolar #mentalhealth #bipolar
https://speaking-bipolar.ck.page/posts/one-sound-changed-my-whole-day-or-what-happened-last-sunday
The thing i find the most upsetting:
If more people got #mentalhealth help, and had the basics (food, shelter and medical)
We wouldnt have to have huge #prisons filled with people with #mental #disabilities
Prevention.
Get people the help they fucking need. The system is fucking over #autistic ; #bipolar ; #schizophrenia ; #personalitydisorders and LOTS of other treatable #disabled people
So unhelpful and counterproductive for the #society people actually want to create
Yeah, oops. Damn lamotrigine.
Turns out I forgot to take my lamotrigine 3 days out of four this week. Going off that long leaves my brain scattered and disjointed. A lot like that analogy of rebuffering videos I mentioned.
So that would explain things. My schedule has been upended the last three weeks, and I haven’t been sitting down to breakfast, so I’ve been forgetting.
Really hate when I have a #hypomania day....it starts out fine then always turns to agitated buzzing..... #bipolar
If you're bipolar and gay, coming out is a headache.
We'll want to talk to our family, but during depression, we'll feel they want to shout at us or be mean. So we always avoid the conversation.
We'll escalate any problems if we talk to them while hypomanic and make any situation worse.
If you are having trouble coming out, you're not a coward. The mood swings could be interfering. Ask a friend or therapist to help you disentangle the lot.
Well written, excellent reporting worth a read.
#Bipolar #Addiction #MentalHealth #Medicine
Is it jet lag or mania that’s makes me want to run a 5k at 5am? With #bipolar, I never know 🙃 it very well could be both.
I'd rather a handful of good friends then 100's of fake ones that run at the first sign of trouble.
Trust me on this, I have had both.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #bipolar #selflove #selfcare
I just coincidentally saw this and I can never recommend her channel enough, so here you go.
"10 Signs I'm Slipping into Psychosis"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQrTyrp03EY
(6/5)
Anyway, I think I'm probably fine and just a bit hypochondriac rather than hypomanic (har har) but it's better to be on alert when this shit happens because if you don't then you can really destroy your life and I've worked hard for the little bit of peace and progress I've got so I don't want to lose that.
Good luck to anyone else out there struggling. You're not alone. ❤️
(5/5)
I also might have a slight psychosis but I'm still evaluating whether that's the case or not. I may have misinterpreted this in the past and I'm not sure anymore.
There's more symptoms that are typical for hypomania and mania but I don't have them right now so I won't list them. You can find it all in WIkipedia though https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypomania There's a lot of good videos on YouTube if you check that out too.
(4/n)
In case you don't know the signs. I can tell you a little bit of what's going on but I won't go into detail because honestly it's private. You get increase energy, increased activity, increased confidence, severe insomnia, extremely decreased attention span, desire to talk all the fucking time (and write long threads haha), more interest in sex and other things like that. For me specifically I have an unsatisfied desire to be social right now...
(3/n)
One of my weird quirks is I can't listen to music in the background. It hugely distracts from what I'm doing and so becomes irritating.
I like music, but my world is free of it unless my main task is listening to music, or at movies, concerts, clubbing, etc.. I don't even listen to music in a car.
I get the same problem with television in the background, even if it's muted. Changing background visuals are as distracting as music.
#bipolar #hypomania #depression #neurodivergent #adhd #autism
A small favour please. I can't read large blocks of text when I'm depressed (too overwhelming) or hypomanic (can't focus). Anything past about 6-7 lines long is too much.
If you break up long paragraphs into shorter ones, it's works for me. I'm okay with long posts, or complex topics, but I am simply daunted by a lot of continuous text. And it's difficult to keep my place while reading a large block of text.
#neurodivergent #depression #mania #hypomania #bipolar #accessibility
Watching #ModernLove on #Prime - really enjoying it so far, just finished the #bipolar episode - don’t know how accurate it was or not but it was powerful stuff
Something I hate about #bipolar is that it’s made me question my mental state on a constant basis. I’ve forgotten what euthymia feels like, and I assume I’m always either depressed or hypomanic, and I view all my actions and feelings through that binary lens, even though things are often more complex than that :/
In the past when I was depressed I would write a lot on my livejournal, tumblr, then twitter. Nowadays I am less inclined to share what's going on in my head because I don't want to bum people out. I don't know how many different ways to write "I am struggling with my existence" without boring people.
hihi! new #introduction because the instance i'm on has moved/rebranded :neofox_heart:
i'm a #ChronicallyIll, #bipolar, #enby who lives with their black cat and loves thinking too much about fiction
#horror #movies, storytelling and #VideoGames are my passion and i want to find #WritingCommunity
some media i love: #DoctorWho, #bloodborne, #celeste, #house, #ajj, #lost, #hannibal, most imaginative #indies, #digimon, #tmnt, #cartoons
Hello everyone, I am Miriam, but if you want to, call me Miri! I’m a #queer 🏳️🌈 #audhd person with #bipolar 2 and #fibromyalgia in their 30s, currently working towards converting to #Judaism. ✡️
I live in Washington state, and I love living near the coast. 🌊
I play #videogames and watch k-dramas in my spare time, and I love #reading and #writing, too. I went to college for #art, and got a BS, but due to mental health stuff, a career never worked out for me. I’m currently living on disability.
I post about a variety of things, lots of personal blurbs, trans stuff, things related to Judaism, cute animals, etc. I always try to put content warnings on my posts, but if I miss something let me know and I will add a warning ASAP! 👍
Moving my profile from Ohai.Social to here...
#Introduction
Bipolar gay guy. I identify more with being bipolar than being gay - it's that intrusive.
Functionally disabled these days due to med resistant depression. Letting life go by while I putter in the garden and keep my dogs happy.
Feel free to ask me about depression or being bipolar.
Be kind.
To people and the other creatures we share our space with.
Photos are mine.
Reddit refugee.
July is #DisabilityPrideMonth
https://ohai.social/@skeletonpup@library.love/110685213483776414
#Bipolar #Depression #Hypomania #MentalHealth #Neurodiverse #Disabled #lgbtq #lgbtqia #Garden #Dogs
In late-90s #Stockholm there was a subculture with only two members: #bipolar #skateboard #Goths.
Now that I've been hanging out here consistently for a week or so I decided it's time for a new #introduction / #reintroduction
I'm Haru, I'm 35, #NonBinary and I live in #Meanjin on Jager/Turrbal land with my wife and #dog. I'm a #CyberWitch and I'm interested in #clouds #birds #insects #flowers #dogs #astronomy #folkmusic #art #photography #media #sculpture #space #philosophy #postmodernism #absurdism #socialjustice #witchcraft #solarpunk to name a few.
I have #CFS and #Bipolar which can make it hard to get out much so seeing so much of the world, so seeing all the wonderful posts here has been an absolute joy.
Now that I've been hanging out here consistently for a week or so I decided it's time for a new #introduction / #reintroduction
I'm Haru, I'm 35, #NonBinary and I live in #Meanjin on Jagera/Turrbal land with my wife and #dog. I'm a #CyberWitch and I'm interested in #clouds #birds #insects #flowers #trees #dogs #astronomy #folkmusic #concertina #folkmagic #art #photography #media #sculpture #space #philosophy #postmodernism #absurdism #socialjustice #witchcraft #solarpunk to name a few. Sometimes I do the odd #shitpost too for fun.
I have #CFS and #Bipolar which can make it hard to get out much so seeing so much of the world, so seeing all the wonderful posts here has been an absolute joy.
chronically ill, bipolar, and working with my doctors to get on disability. all of my work and creative projects are done on a computer and my laptop motherboard has just been irrevocably damaged according to the repair shop :((
i had some money saved up to see my ldr partner, but it's not enough to cover what i'd need for a replacement so i'm asking for assistance in covering the rest with $700. anything toward that would be a big help. i'd get a cheaper laptop, but the work i do is in editing video/audio and medical debt means i can't finance it
you can also have me do gigs for you! I can edit/write scripts or edit/sound design your audio/videos when i have a replacement
https://ko-fi.com/littleampersand
#MutualAid #TransMutualAid #queer #disabled #DisabledAid #NonBinary #MutualAidRequest #pngtuber #bipolar #DisabilityCrowdFund
If you find yourself always frustrated with people, maybe take a step back and figure out if your the real problem.
We project our anger outward and neglect the causes inside of us.
Find the real cause and fix it, be a happier person.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #bipolar #selflove #selfcare
Today I discovered that not only is July #Disability Pride Month but also that we have a flag. It is so well done and extremely meaningful. It was created by Ann Magill, a disabled writer.
The entire thing will not fit into the thumbnail but if you open the image, it will tell you what each color and flag feature stands for. It is also in the alt text if you are unable to open it.
#disabled #accessibility #cerebralpalsy #adhd #autism #OCD #PTSD #bipolar #depression #invisibleillness (& more!)
(2/2)
I am outwardly cheerful but live with #bipolar disorder and am often struggling in private. I can remember clearly what my life was like before my disease manifested and worsened, and I am resentful that it stole away the person that I used to be.
I’m recently separated from my husband and partner of 12 years, and learning to be alone again. When I’m not working, I spend my days #gardening, pampering my #rescuedogs, #gaming, #cooking, #hiking, #camping, and soon, #traveling.
That’s me!
#TheMetalDogArticleList
#BLABBERMOUTH
MICHAEL ANTHONY Reveals When He First 'Came To The Conclusion' That DAVID LEE ROTH Was 'Bipolar'
In a new interview with "THAT Rocks!", the weekly YouTube series hosted by Eddie Trunk, Jim Florentine and Don Jamieson, former VAN HALEN bassist Michael Anthony confirmed that he does "very little" social media...
#MichaelAnthony #DavidLeeRoth #Bipolar #VanHalen #Musicians #RockStars #RockAndRoll #ReunionTour #OpensUp #HealthIssues
My confidence is so low right now. It’s hard to convince myself that I’m an artist. Nothing comes easy like it did. I think my #chronicPain is the majority of it, but being #bipolar doesn’t help. This is all I could manage today… I should be doing things twice as good as this. 😕
#MastoArt
A sense of community is important and that includes those who suffer from mental illness. heypeers.com is a great, free site that has wonderful peer meetings for those with mood disorders, anxiety, depression and other illnesses.
Sometimes just knowing your not alone, is enough.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #bipolar #selflove #selfcare
#Introduction
Bipolar gay guy, with two dogs and a garden. Ex-cyclist / runner. Functionally disabled these days due to med resistant depression.
Bipolar for 40 years. Diagnosed 25 years ago. Blogged about it for 20 years.
I talk openly about my experiences. Ask me about depression or hypomania or being bipolar, including about sensitive topics. You aren't alone.
#Bipolar #Depression #Hypomania #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #Disabled #lgbtq #lgbtqia #Garden #Dogs
of the skill needed to make it has been crushing. Worse, my recent #bipolar diagnosis has left me floundering in self-doubt as I have become aware of my ever shifting mental states. And then there’s my career change over a year ago. So much turmoil! But doing good #art requires a quiet and meditative mind. I’m searching for that quiet mind again; I’m looking for those magical moments when light seems to drip from my brush and illusions dance on the paper or canvas. Maybe soon…
Low-Dose Oral Film Reduces Mental Disorder Agitation
Interim results from a clinical trial show a drug given as a dissolvable oral film in a lower #dose reduces #agitation in people with #bipolar disorder and #schizophrenia.
https://sciencebusiness.technewslit.com/?p=44828
#News #Science #Business #ClinicalTrial #MentalHealth #BipolarDisorder #Chemistry #MachineLearning #ArtificialIntelligence #Algorithms
When your helping a friend and you feel pressured to say something profound but you can't figure out what to say, don't worry so much. You just being there for that person and making eye contact, let them know they aren't alone is worth more than any overly quoted self help guide.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #bipolar #selflove #selfcare
Finally completed a #WaterColor in a single session again. Over two years… that’s how long it’s been since our daughter died. In the intervening time I changed jobs, underwent a major back surgery, and was diagnosed as #bipolar. I’ve tried to watercolor multiple times, but always failed. This isn’t my best work and it’s an old composition, but it’s still an accomplishment.
#cPTSD #mentalillness #chronicpain
Thought I'd repost my #introduction
I'm a technologist for #localgov during the day. A transformation enthusiast.
#Bipolar, recently married and dad of 3, watching #movies, #scifi and love #goodfood and #coffee. 2 #dogs and a #cat complete the home
#smarthome, #lego, #modelrailways, steam train geek.
Constantly learning, technology (#3Dprinting, #drones, #selfhosting, #homeasistant, #photography, #drones, #infosec) and socially, to be a better ally to those who aren't as fortunate as me.
My #introduction: I make Mac apps (Marked 2, Bunch, nvUltra), utilities (doing, na, howzit, +100 more), blog at https://brettterpstra.com, podcast at https://overtiredpod.com and, during the daylight hours, I work at Oracle as a writer on the Developer Relations team.
Love animals (esp. cats). OK with people. Love writing regular expressions. Like hiking/nature.
I'm open about mental health (#bipolar #adhd) and am in love with an #autistic person.
I’ve been particularly unwell for a while, perhaps a couple weeks, month, idk, but it is honestly hard for me to fully recall with accuracy how I’ve been and when. Except for the past two or three days, I recall in a a way that is very distant in both time and space. But I also recall some incredibly good moments in the past couple weeks that made me feel loved and appreciated. This happens just often enough that I am able to keep my feet on the ground.
I have been struggling with psychotic symptoms. I am still a normal person, one that *is* human. Flawed but not broken. For some amount of days I have been hating myself and the person I see in the mirror. When I see them, they were at first not me, but then they were, and then I just didn’t know which of the many reflections I have seen in my life were actually me. I don’t discuss this much, and I try my best to be confident in my pictures, but in all honesty, not hyperbole, I barely trust what I see in any picture or in a reflection most of the time. It is no different from how I feel about the me on the inside. It’s not because of poor self image, but because my image is actually distorted to me at times. It shifts so often I don’t know who is who. When I am well enough, I try to put my trust in the images and people that make me feel good about myself, and trust that those images and words that make me feel good are a true enough depiction of what others actually do see. I don’t know what people see. Also, when I am unwell I look at those same images, replay the same words, recall the good emotions, and sometimes it helps me get through, helps me choose a “version of me” to believe in.
I am crying as I write this, because I cannot tell you how many days I’ve said, “I think I am good today!” Then I read the thoughts I have typed, and realize… I’m not good. I’m probably just “ok” right now? But not good, or tomorrow I might look back at today and realize I was bad. It is maddening never being able to trust myself.
This is a picture I took earlier to see who I would see looking back. I see a person who feels “just ok but not good.” I posted it *because* I didn’t want to, in spite of myself, but also it is me, no matter what *I* see right now. I suppose I *am* just a collection of images in many ways.
I don’t post this stuff looking for sympathy. It is just… my life. I live with it, and try every day to manage just a little better than the day before. I’m trying to get on the right meds. I go to therapy weekly, I see my psych regularly, I take my meds as diligently as possible, I try to get good sleep. But it all often feels futile, but that is probably just part of the mind fuck.
I share these things about myself because often it helps me in some way I cannot explain. But also, there are others who I occasionally hear from who experience some of what I do, and you might not even know they exist because they are in the world right in front of you, doing their best to stay in this world, a world that sometimes defies reality. And they wear many masks, like me. I am removing my masks by doing this. Others may not be able or ready to remove theirs, but at least they see me here, regardless of which me they see, and hopefully they know they are not alone.
In case anybody who sees my new account and thinks I unfollowed you, I didn’t. I was… not well, and I deleted my other account.
#Trans #TransGender #Gay #Ace #MentalHealth #MentalIllness #Bipolar
“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know absolutely nothing about. Be kind. Always.”
-Robin Williams
Dear stranger reading this. I don't know you but I know no matter how bad it feels right now, it will get better. the sun will rise and there will be another day where you don't feel the way you do right now. Making it through the pain you feel now will be worth those good moments ahead of you. Don't you give up on yourself, I believe in you and even though I don't know who you are, I love you.